It bothers me that I don't write as much on my blog anymore. Life seems to be getting in the way. Or am I letting it get in the way?
When I started, I used to just sit down with an idea and let the post flow. Now I worry that I don't have enough time to write out all my thoughts. So I don't blog at all.
I miss sharing from my heart.
I miss sharing with you.
There are days I have thought about giving up blogging altogether.
Then there are days when I get a sweet comment that reminds me why I started blogging in the first place: to encourage others.
So I am reevaluating the why behind my blogging. I want to make sure my actions line up with that why.
“You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven." Matthew 5:14-16
I think I want to tape this scripture to my forehead, so I'll remember it. But then again, if it's on my forehead, I can't read it. Instead I think I'll just leave it here…and in my heart.
There was a day when we were facing a very intense trial, that I was overcome with grief. I prayed for the Lord's deliverance in that situation. I said, "Lord, if you will take care of this, I will shout your praises from the rooftops." And guess what? He did.
In a way, this blog is a recognition of that. It is a recognition of answered prayer. It is a recognition of all of God's goodness in my life. It is a recognition of His light in my life. It is a recognition of His glory.
It is my light on the hill.
As such, I have to put aside my own ambitions. My blog may never reach 1,000 readers, let alone 10,000 readers. I may never get any more comments. I may never win any awards or receive any recognition. My own private dreams may never be reached.
And I have to be OK with that.
Because ultimately it isn't about me. It's all about my Heavenly Father. It's all about being His light. And I have to trust Him with my private dreams and aspirations.
Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4
It's not up to me to work it all out. It's up to me to delight in the Lord and to trust Him with the desires He has placed in my heart.
I have to tell you that is hard for this Type A firstborn. I want to plunge ahead. But I am trying to learn to step back and trust Him with those desires. He has placed them in my heart for a reason. And He will see them come to fruition in His way and His time.
It's the same for you my friend. Whatever dreams God has placed in your heart are there for a reason. Don't give up on them. And don't give up on God. He will see you through.
Dear Lord, we thank You today for the dreams and desires You have planted in our heart. Help us to trust You with those desires. Guard our hearts as we wait on You. Guard our hearts against jealousy, impatience and pride. Help us to remember to be Your light in the wait. Help us to share that light with others. In Jesus' name we pray, Amen.


















