It has taken me several days to post. I have been trying to figure out what to say. That is not normally a problem that I have. Instead, I usually have to hold my tongue.
What I would like to say, though, is Thank You! So many of you have had kind words to say and prayers to offer. We have definitely needed it.
Thursday was definitely a very difficult day. We decided to bury Mr. Gufferson as a family. I am not sure if that was a good decision or not. Our son took his death very hard. He had friends to play with in the afternoon that helped to keep his mind off of it. But, when we came home, he knew what we were going to do. After the burial, he could not stop crying. I did not know what to do for him or say to him. The only thing I could do was hold him and cry with him. It was a very difficult evening.
It’s also a difficult thing spiritually. We have struggled so much over the last few years and it hasn’t been any different lately. In some ways it feels even more difficult. It doesn’t seem fair that losing Gus would happen on top of everything else. In some ways I feel like David in Psalm 13:1-2, “How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart?”
But, I will say as David did later in verses 5 &, “I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord, for he has been good to me.”
He has been good to me. I will remember that when the days are long and hard, hen it seems difficult to face another day and when doubts plague my mind. I will remember His unfailing love.
I will close with Psalm 46. I read this scripture to my family yesterday as we went to church. It seems to fit.
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging. Selah
There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God,
the holy place where the Most High dwells.
God is within her, she will not fall; God will help her at break of day.
Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall;
he lifts his voice, the earth melts.
The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress. Selah
Come and see the works of the Lord,
the desolation he has brought on the earth.
He makes wars cease to the ends of the earth;
he breaks the bow and shatters the spear,
he burns the shields with fire.
“Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”
The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress. Selah
