WLWed: True Confessions

This week's topic is…

Open.  Blog about whatever is on your mind concerning your weight loss journey.  I have a specific message on my heart to share with you.  I hope you'll join me!

When I started Weight Watchers in February there was an unspoken fear in the back of my mind….a fear that I would quit.  Unfortunately, I had plenty of experience to back up this fear.  I have started Weight Watchers many times before and quit.

Usually I get far enough along to see the fruits of my labors and then I start giving into my food cravings.  I think about how well I've done and I start relaxing.  Invariably, I go back to my old habits.

So when I joined again in February, I was afraid I would repeat this pattern.

Afraid of change, I started out slowly.  Then I picked up steam and really started losing weight.  By the time we went on vacation in September, I had lost 25 lbs. 

When I came back from vacation, my weight loss seemed to stop. 

Since the beginning of October, I have had an extremely difficult time watching what I eat and exercising.  It's not that I don't want to.  Everything else seems to keep getting in the way.  I know these are just excuses.

Slowly this fear has turned into reality which has turned into something else entirely…

thoughts of failure.

I'm a failure.  I am failing at this weight loss thing.  I'll never get it right.

When I lost 1.6 lbs last week, a new reality began working it's way into my head…

I can do this. 

It's not about losing weight the fastest…it's about losing weight and being healthy…no matter how long it takes.

And that is sticking with me even though I only lost .2 lbs yesterday, which still leaves me .6 lbs shy of 30 lbs.

Slowly losing weight does not equal failure.  Slowly losing weight is better than not losing at all.  I will continue going to my weekly Weight Watchers meetings no matter how difficult it is.  I will continue to battle to make healthy choices and work towards a better future for myself and my family.

I am not a failure.

And neither are you my friend. 

No matter how many times you've fallen off the wagon

No matter how many times you've given into temptation

No matter how slowly you are losing the weight

You are not a failure.

How about you my friend?  How are you doing with your weight loss goals?  Do you have a recipe you would like to share?  Link up for Weight Loss Wednesday and share.  Remember…we're all in this together!

Write a blog post it, referencing this post.  Then link up with Mr. Linky below.  Please know, though, that I reserve the right to delete any link that does not conform to the spirit of Weight Loss Wednesday.  You can also join us on Facebook and Twitter using the hashtag #wlwed. 

Also please remember to visit some of the other ladies as well.  It's very encouraging to know you are not alone in this journey.

I am going to take some time off this month from blogging.  So I will not be hosting Weight Loss Wednesday for the next two weeks.  I hope you'll come back and join me on January 4th. 

I hope you have a Merry Christmas!

In the meantime, remember….

Quitting is not an option!

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